These are my poems that I wrote in times when I felt down and I needed help but I just picked up a piece of paper and started to write poems. I just want to point out that I am not an Emo and I have been through very bad times so if these poems are dark, then you know why. These poems mean a lot to me and I do not want any of these poems to be copied or used in anyway. Some of these Poems have been published therefore they are copyrighted. Thank you.
Time flies
My time is not a clock,
But all I can hear is tick-tock,
My nights are shorts,
But it is like the moon is caught.
My clouds drift by,
But the night is nye,
Please time, don't try to hide,
For it is a matter of time in till the tide.
Time flies when you are having fun,
But really it is a gun,
My efforts are not enough,
For time is tough,
Please time, do not get rough,
For it is you that is tough,
Time flies,
For I cry.
This poem (Time Flies) has been published.
Winter
The leaves are falling off the trees,
But time is setting in,
One rainy day,
Turns into a thundery day,
With forks of lightening coming out of the sky,
The summer days are ending,
When all of a sudden,
Winter has arrived,
And the snow falls out of the sky,
A joyful time has come,
Children flock out of the houses,
Like sheep being herded by a sheepdog,
Snowball fights commence and snowmen are found in every garden,
It has proved a happy day for us all,
For winter is a special time.
This poem (Winter) has been published.
Setting
The sun is near to setting,
But long true love is just the beginning,
But you are the one that keeps my heart beating,
My love is just but keeping,
The moon is near to rising,
But all I can do is be knightly,
The stars are like shining lights in the dark sky,
But love, you can only try,
And find the course of it all.
Stars
I watch from my lonely bed,
How far have I come,
The moon shines down on us all,
But the stars are different,
Every star is different,
But some take animal forms,
We are very different yet,
The stars are one of us.
Not a cloud in sight,
But yet a million stars,
Predict the future in the stars,
For the stars are one of us.
The birds of winter
Winter has come for us all,
But not for the birds,
The birds still sing their great songs,
Yet they linger on,
The robin, an icon of winters,
Is such a pretty bird,
But it is what cast the outcome of Christmas.
The pretty songs are yet brilliant,
For the birds are of winter, summer, spring and autumn,
But the birds are brilliant, as they make the world go round.
The world caught in a moment
The world is made of Gases, Water and Plants,
Although humans are the dominant species,
The earth is being destroyed by humans,
But all we can do is think about the future.
Time is of essence,
But as we try,
We can't change time around,
Let us be united,
And let us help the world,
For time is ticking,
Yet the future is near,
Who knows what it will be like.
You
You are my heart, my love, my soul,
But it is a lonely cold, night,
I miss you for I ask the stars,
'where art thou.'
Maybe you don't realize my love for you,
Or even if I love you,
But when the sun sets,
I am lonely,
Only you can reverse this spell.
I watch from my lonely bed,
But I want you in my arms,
I will make sure it comes true,
But your face is beautiful,
Come into the light, my prince, my love, my heart,
I love you,
Only you.
This poem (You) has been published.
Heart
The heart is what keeps us alive,
But yet it tells us when we have found love,
It keeps the love circling,
And it lets the love flow though your veins.
It has only just struck me,
But you are the love of my life.
Time has gone,
Yet my heart keeps beating,
I love you,
More than just a crush
Sirius
The star I see every night,
Has all but might,
Sirius is it's name,
And yet it is tame.
Night and night, I stare at it,
But I see a long pit,
Love is in its heart,
But it cannot part,
But he is just like me,
As I drink my tea.
A dog he is,
But I am just a miss,
Love is not my strong point,
As Orion is put together point by point.
Love
Love is a strange thing,
It can tear your heart apart,
Yet love has two angles,
Destroy and like.
These two feelings can destroy one person,
Love is a rare thing,
But you just to find the one you love.
It's hard,
But do not fear,
For love is complex and strange.
Magic
Magic is a supernatural force,
Yet it is real,
If you have ever experienced love,
Then you will find out that it is magic.
Stories upon stories,
Of stupid stories of transformations and quests,
But it is all around us,
For magic is everything and everyone,
Just more magic is found in some people than others,
And that is called love.
Departing
You are departing from my life,
Like many others before you,
But yet you leave in a different way,
To all those others that are gone.
You made me express so many different feeling,
One night, I'm happy,
The other, I'm crying for your love.
I'm sick of hearing all those lies and fears for you.
I love you so much I feel dead,
But why do you have to leave to another part of the world,
You may have someone else in mind for you,
But you still holding on my heart strongly.
I'll never forget you,
Till my world ends around me,
You'll never leave my heart until I'm dead,
And still then I'll never forget you.
Later poems from after splitting up with my boyfriend.
Loneliness
Locked up in a room
My mind is racing thought my gloomy thoughts,
My life is just a dawning,
As my breath gets steadily deeper,
Myself, my persona is lost in the mist,
Constantly losing my mind,
My panic attacks I fear,
I'm a fly on a wall,
Locked up in chains,
My mind is no longer working,
My life is just a bore and I'm neglected,
By everyone who's nice around me.
Deceit
My blood rushes through my veins,
My pulse is rising,
Yet my eyes deceive me.
What may look like the love of my life,
Is full of deceit and lies,
I cannot comprehend my feelings,
For this nasty piece of work,
But if I was in his eyes,
I wouldn't understand my mind,
Should I risk my happiness for him?
Or should I give up?
Eternal bliss will never come,
Yet this step will make it worse to overcome.
Nightingale
The nightingale sings to me,
Up on his own branch,
But the next minute,
He falls,
Stone cold dead.
Am I the one at fault?
My heart is a hand grenade,
Held by my fair love,
Yet deceit and lies and love is not what I give,
'Rebel, Rebel'
I hear the dead nightingale sing.
'Nothing Is left for you to touch'
My life is just a single lie,
Goodbye my love,
For I will never return.
VTOL
Too shy to say the words he dreamed of,
Too scared to say it to my face,
My eyes glow like light bulbs,
Yet he dare not see them,
My feet fall down to hell,
Into burning flames,
The constant flirtations,
Send palpitations,
Yet I dare not see him again.
Do you really want him?
My heart says to me,
But I just want to fling my fist between his eyes,
The anger draws to me.
Leaving
Don't try to tempt me,
I know what I believe and I stick to it,
But can't you just let me lead my life,
Instead of you stalking me,
Harassing me,
I feel like no one likes me,
Even though they do.
People support me but he harasses me,
can't he just leave me alone,
I lost people but I still got my support.
It's not like, I'm on my own,
Don't look at me that way,
Because I won't accept you again,
Leave me alone.
OK!
I watch the trees go past me,
Although my mind is troubled,
A thought harassing me,
Can't leave me alone,
I get myself all wound up.
It's pushing me over the edge,
Even though it's concerned.
I hear the birds sing,
Although it won't go,
Even though it's reassuring,
It's just me.
I'm paranoid and people want revenge,
I know I'm not on my own,
But I'll fight against it.
I listen to music and it's reassuring,
It's all going to come to me,
Sometime but at the moment, it ain't because I'm sane,
And that's my way.
WASTED
I had a life,
Wasted,
I had a car,
Wasted,
I had a family,
Wasted,
I had a chance,
Wasted,
Take me by the wrist,
I lost my chance,
Lost my family,
Cos I wasted my life,
From suicide and drugs,
To death cometh me,
From the flames of hell,
To the depth of my thoughts,
Maybe it's a dream,
I won't ever know,
My dream is in ashes,
So let myself burn to ashes.
CHANCE
Take me away to a place I need,
Someone I love and adore,
That I can trust and believe,
My fate is a wager,
Waiting to be won.
Do I believe in myself,
Is my mind playing tricks on me?
Or is it just disgust,
My life is just chance,
Yet again to be wasted.
Pressure
You listen to the mistakes my feet make when we dance together,
I can feel your breath against my skin,
No one really cares about breaking each others hearts,
For one, I fall down to beg for forgiveness from you,
But you just turn your back and leave.
I don't have a chance to say sorry.
I can't make amends for you thinking it's wrong,
And now I know I live in a burning fireball,
Your skin rots when I touch your face,
I feel unwanted in a world that don't exist,
Pressure falls from the sky as I sift my fingers through your hair,
You love for me is all but gone,
Your heart will rot and die and I will go for eternity to hell.
This poem was written when I was going out with my boyfriend.
You and I
Your breath is so sweet on my skin,
I write poems and songs about you,
Your breath has healed my wound,
From the last guy.
Now I strive onwards into your arms.
'Green day' helped me through the day,
although you aid me through my life.
It's you I care about,
And I'm all your forever.
Hope this feeling never ends,
Or otherwise I will become a castaway,
Astray on an island of disbelief,
Left as a victim of blood, sex and booze,
So never leave my side.
These poems were written after I had gone through the whole ordeal of the break up.
I just wanna live
They say,
You have to fend for yourself,
But yet no one ever backs away from you,
Even if they are your enemy.
Yet, why can't everyone see that I just wanna live.
Harassment, denial, suicide, the end is nigh,
It's all the words you hear in this world. God doesn't exist,
Man is on it's own.
I for one is that girl that has to fight for survival.
I hear the trees whistle,
'You’re alive.'
But I just want to live and back away into the shadows
Fake
Faking everything I ever did just to impress,
I never got my diploma even though I tried,
It's not exactly my mind on fire,
But the life of destruction is what drives us all.
Popularity and distrust,
Distinguished in my mind and it wasn't right,
From the day that blade plunged in my heart,
I knew it was ready to happen and that I was supposed to be there.
Captured and betrayed by those around me,
Lead to the searching for hell,
That's what always happens and that's what happened,
To goodwill and disgust.
Resurrected
Night dawns,
I know where I am forever now,
The trap has been laid for anyone,
That ruins my happiness.
People used to betray me,
Yet now the tables have turned.
I can breath again,
Light pierces my minds eye,
I can touch happiness now.
I feel freed from what seemed to be an eternity,
My mind is at rest,
While every bad omen is suffocated.
Regret and revenge are gone for now,
Eternal happiness would bleach you,
For once I am free,
I've been resurrected.
A Normal day
Traffic buzzes by,
My mind eye is fixed.
Constant fumes of Carbon dioxide and smoke,
A world that will be soon consumed.
Extinguished fires,
Freedom fighters,
Almost equal in every way,
Yet all these things are not my life.
A sweaty office,
Where all of the outside is to be seen.
The longing of the ocean,
Brings the scent back to me,
Except I am literally choking in the real world,
Is this a normal day?
Or is this another feast for the devil to consume?
Satan's pit
The night creeps up behind me,
My utopia was too far from me,
I fell within the pit,
A thousand memories eroded by the fall,
I fell too far for me to find,
Yet a pocket of air was guaranteed.
All I wanted was death,
Although there is no escaping your old memories and fears,
I know this is not death,
This is Satan's pit.
Truth
Passwords hacked and fear within,
"lay truth in your friends,"
A friend,
Now gone,
A stalker in my world,
Paranoia of the people I knew,
No trust,
That I can give.
A thousand fucking lies,
And you know whose mouth they escape.
Truth cannot be given,
But can only be within,
The person who holds the truth.
Fear me
They say were all the same but that is all wrong,
A world wrecked by man,
A million fucking lies in my head,
A fear of all within.
Time again,
I take my daemons hand,
To wish me away to happiness.
I have no saviour in this world,
Except the saviour that only exists in my mind,
I feel the noose around my neck,
Piss down the drain,
The anger builds up around me,
Ready to unleash to any person in my way,
Fear me, for I am the devil within.
Utopia
Trapped in a vortex,
Filling up with anger,
For the fear of all I have lost,
Trembling at every checkpoint,
Feeling my way around in the dark,
I'm on my own,
Paranoid.
Fear creeping up my back.
Am I haunted by my past?
Encased in a world that don't exist,
That's my only help with all I have got.
Insomnia and demons in my wardrobe.
Fear of all those around me,
My utopia is too far behind me.
Fire
Extinguished in my mind,
Burnt in my dreams,
No time to save.
Rain falls from your soul,
Yet I fear not,
I'll knock on that burnt door,
For this fire ridden world.
Sunlight etches the mind away,
Fire burns the very heart,
Till you are all but left.
I'll walk this lonely road,
Splintered on the cross,
Regeneration fear of a world,
Insomnia never rests.
Systems will rule this unforgiving world.
Don't let your mind rest,
Since one day that fire will burn through the very core of it.
Server
Feeling the weight on my skin,
The constant pressure and force,
Of an unforgivable race.
Unextinguished by my mind,
Or erased from the server of my brain,
Hatred in a world that don't exist,
Constant memories bleach the sane with fears.
Am I not alone?
The Mouse trap is laid by my heart,
For it to be released so soon,
My breath polluted with a million fucking thoughts,
Of disgust and hatred,
When I look in the mirror,
I see the devil looking back at me,
For I am alone and sad,
My brain cells killed by an A-bomb,
And now it's my turn to finally,
Be extinguished from this world of hatred and fear.
Night Fear Day
Secluded once again from this world,
The loneliness and fear creep up behind me,
Fear of the world is only but approaching,
Night is day, day is night,
A forfeited life,
Of angriness and dedication,
Sane yet insane.
Philosophy and chemistry,
Pain my bleached heart full of selfish doubt.
Languished, punished for things that are right,
Yet wrong to the world that exists,
My home,
Wrecked from disease of this unrighteous world,
We are animals,
Why can't animals be treated like us?
Dignity and abolition,
It's just lies,
for all of us are free.
TNT
I feel the dust fall on my shoulder,
Of a dead world,
Now gone from all life's existent.
Rejection and negativity,
Revolve around my world,
Where those are the only emotions.
For I,
Lay there for hope.
Anxiety and deception,
Cloud these undiscovered thoughts,
Yet my heart feels touched by it.
Lightening strikes me.
I felt dead within,
Yet perception is misleading.
I know now,
For I have seen,
That my life is just a loop,
And when my heart was blown up with TNT,
I knew that I was in love.
We might as well be strangers
We know each other so well,
yet it is due to neglect,
Fear of a great demise
Falling into the great abyss,
Yet the constant flow of rain changes the course.
We might as well be strangers,
In another world,
And just pass each other with not the slightest glance.
We know each other so well,
But we don't want to know the future.
Fear of that faithful glance,
Just a corner away from destruction of the both of us.
Past
A shredded letter in my bin,
Is all that remains of my last love,
The many events around me,
Shape our anarchist world.
My past was written down,
A million thought and decision,
Thrown into the abyss of a plastic world.
Years turned to days,
Days turned to minutes,
All erased from my mind.
His face faded,
Only to return form the ashes,
His love was never meant for me,
and neither was I.
Image
My hand sifted through his body,
He felt so near,
His breath soothed my mind,
As he edged towards his doom,
Fate sealed me in,
His eyes were like sapphires,
Immersed in dark memories,
Yet he was just an image,
Just a figment of my imagination,
His touch felt so warm,
Yet he wasn't there,
His image fading,
I despaired for he was my real love.
He wasn't an image,
He was real once,
But we were torn from each others side,
He is just a fading memory now.